I should be scared... and I should be fearful
- We are moving back home despite the fact that the hubby still has to work back here and complete his contract
- We do not yet have a signed contract with the district in Salem
- We have no foreseeable paycheck for the month of March to live off of
- We have no idea what we are doing
Thankfully I feel nothing but peace in God, and in knowing that He has been so ridiculously faithful and gracious to me and my husband.
I consistently pray that I never become prideful or arrogant about the blessings we have received because, I truly know that life was not always like this and at any time God could decide to completely overhaul our lives or even test us in our faith. He has always answered our prayers, even if the answer was no, and God has definitely had to break us and bring us to a place of complete and unashamed need in a Savior. I consider my relationship not only dependent, but healthfully co-dependent on a Savior who knows my needs and meets them above and beyond what I could ever deserve of my own doing. I could never be good enough, smart enough, generous enough or kind enough to deserve His mercy, but somehow I have received it and I cling to it for dear life...
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4-7
I think of this passage every time I start to worry or speak out loud the crazy circumstances we are dealing with. The peace and calm that God provides is so evident that not only do I hear these words when I pray, but then I have sweet amazing and faithful friends who will text this verse to me in the middle of my chaotic worry as if God is reminding me that He is still GOD!
He is bigger than my biggest fear, and greater than my greatest worry—Whom then shall I fear?
Just wanted to share God's love to anyone who was willing to read this rant...
